by VanPan

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[Bap bap ba de boop boopda] I like the way you drive to life, your like a knife that cuts through the bullsh*t [Oh woah ahhh] I like the way you drive yourself into me with our slow pulsing bodies I'm at sea [Oh woah ahhh] Ahhhh ahhh ahhh ahhh ahhh oohhh I like the way you drive the conversation to places where people don't go I never know with you what you'll do next keep me on my toes [Oh woah ahhh]
La Di Da 03:58
She walks into the room, what happens to you, who cut out the sound your mind is not around… Anymore, all is left is your heart beat beat, jaw dropped drooling on your… Feet, you start walking step step to her, mouth saying things like, ‘how are ya’ Wake up in a flash what just happened stepped back oh wait a minute Is she smiling back You’re alive with love and that’s all you’re thinking of You’re blinded from the sun from up above In love with love and that’s all you’re thinking of You’re in love with love with love with love Like… La di di da la di di da di da la la la di da You wake up in your room, what happened to you, oh what’s that sound, your mind is buzzing round To the ground, those aren’t my shoes you look around you, oh hush hush now she’s sleeping next to you Oh how could this happen to me? Aren’t those funny noises that she makes when sleeping, yet… Somehow you find it so endearing and aren’t you Just lucky Your friends they don’t understand they think that you’re delusional But if they could open up your chest they’d see your hearts fractal Is it really so complex, or is it all just simple Your mind is a haze but it’s a haze you crave and that is all So you know that she’s the one (for now) ​
Good Man 02:43
Oh he’s a good one, he cares for me Don’t always feel it, but I know that he wants the best for me Perfect? We’re not perfect Don’t try to be Love, I don’t love every aspect of your personality Yet I’m glad to be your honeybee, Glad to be you honeybee Naturally! I’ll always love him Even if we…. Together, not together I want him to be as happy as he can be He’s a good man, always will be He’s so good so good I’m lucky ​
Mud 03:15
Drilling down self discipline Don’t play to play, I play to win Catalyst, spark my sin Oh how my head starts to spin But when you touch my body All I know is in the win When you touch my body All I know is that I can’t win Mud, Mud Woke up in the morning Oh what have I done? ​ How I long to belong to you and want you to want it too
Closer 01:58
I’m getting closer to music and it makes me feel closer to you The memories turn to harmonies and they torture me just like you used to do I can still remember Cruel things we did to each other But somehow it doesn’t matter I’m still stuck on you We’d walk through parks together our feet were made of feathers You’d fill me up with laughter then cut me down the day after Yet still we stayed together we were drunk on our sick pleasure You made me feel alive
Lovers 03:19
Two girls are lost looking for lovers No skin to bleed their hearts uncovered Looking to please and be discovered Their selfish deeds are being lovers The lovers sit and watch the day As it fades and falls away They can’t begin to understand They only know the ways of men Looking to please on bended knees We’ll be discovered Stripping our lovers
I place all the boys in my fantasy The ones I loved and hated, the ones I said hi to occasionally I put them all inside of me Letting their lips cover every nook of my body Oh you were the victor of my little noxious test Because you loved me better than all the rest I laced my fingers through the nape of you neck You were asleep as you hand laid softly upon my breast Oh oh how I longed to let you in You’re body so pale and freckled new, white and fresh I compared your to my cocoa skin The contrast between our cleaving flesh As our limbs intertwined and meshed The way our colors weaved like a bluebirds nest The way our colors weaved like a bluebirds nest A bluebirds nest, bluebird’s nest
In the Fire 03:38
Throw me in the fire Watch the flames burn higher With your terrors removed With your terrors removed Removed
Il y a une fille There is a girl avec deux grands yeux With two ample eyes Un sourire qui brille A smile that shines Même si elle est ailleurs However she is elsewhere Mais je l'adore pour son espirit But I adore her for her mind J'aime quand on parle et quand on rit I love it when we talk and when we laugh Ma bonne amie, Ma bonne amie My good friend, My good friend Parler avec toi, ce n'est pas un souci Talking with you is not a worry Ma bonne amie, tu donnes ton avis My good friend, You give me your opinion à propos de toutes les choses de la vie on everything in life ​ Elle incarne la joie de vivre She embodies the joy of life Ses belles paroles m'enivrent Her beautiful words intoxicate me Te-souviens tu de la chanson du paresseux? Do you remember the song about the sloth? On faisait n'importe quoi et on a écrite toute les deux We did whatever and wrote it together Ma bonne amie, Ma bonne amie My good friend, My good friend Quand j'suis avec toi j'ai pas de souci When I'm with you I have no worries Ma bonne amie, Ma bonne amie My good friend, my good friend Je te garderai pour toute la vie I'll keep you for life ​ Quand on était ensemble la vie rimait avec vacance When we are together life resembles vacation Tes gestes et mouvements se font avec élégance Your gestures and movements are done with elegance Tu es aux États Unis, je suis en France You are in the United States, I'm in France Tu viendra peut-être me voir avec un peu de You'll come visit me perhaps with a bit of chance
You feel it creeping in Coming to suck your breadth Falling off the earth In your head, (you're/where) in your head Until you know what to do I can sit here next to you I can't say I know what you're going through But I'll be here sitting next to you But I feel so helpless Love escapes your eyes Where does your mind lie? ​
Eyes Open 04:25
Give me a lonesome night I want to feel sorrow There’s a gentle consciousness When the body’s calm Hollow My eyes are open My head is clear and I find peace When I look out the window ​
Ok 02:29
In general I’m happier in nature Though my skin is full of bug bites and splinters I’m itchy and uncomfortable but somehow there’s a peace in my soul Ok And I’m learning as I go Many things I don’t have control of And all the possibilities I could take Ok I’m cynical when I think about you But I still write about how it used to Be and your stupid affect on me More rhymes and time and I guess we’ll see Ok
Sitting on my kitchen counter Up high on the 15th story I can see the Eiffel Tour As it sparkle here before me And I wonder how many stories Of love lay buried in its memory As I gaze upon the city I think of you I think of you I think of you and me We were playing Texas Hold’em Anti up and deal me in But should I raise or should I fold them Oh the risks when gamblin And I wonder how can I win My thoughts are cards in a deck that’s shuffling Should I raise or fold, will we grow old Will we stay together or part forever Je me demande combien de temps nous avons, avant nous de partir pour de bon je me je me demande Sitting on my kitchen counter I can’t help but wander Oh will we stay together or will we part forever?
You're on your way I see your silhouette I won't make you stay My love Walking on the field with no direction 在黑夜里越走越深 zai hei an li yue zou yue shen (Within the darkness, walking further and deeper) 越走越深 yue zou yue shen (Walking further and deeper) 不再幻想 bu zai huan xiang (No longer in the illusion) 把黑暗 ba hei an (Taking the darkness) 装进行囊 zhuang jīn xing nang (Packing it in my napsack) 游荡流浪 you dang liu lang (Wandering, roaming)
Your insecurities become a self fulfilled prophecy As you rip apart pieces of my psychology Using your words as weapons just to hurt me But the impact is hard to foresee I say Choose your words very carefully Choose your words very carefully Before there are too many casualties I need my choice I need my freedom So let me love you to my rhythm I made my choice I need my freedom So let me love you to my rhythm Can you take me as I am Oh can you take me as I am Oh come on take me as I am Oh no won’t you choose to understand? Oh understand And then maybe things can go back to How they used to be
Oh won’t you give me a chance At an old-fashioned romance Eloquently move me with a good story So I can lean in closely and kiss your cheek See roses rush to your face As I place my hand into yours But doesn’t that take swag? Perhaps the people back in those days had it more than I’ll ever have Beats drunkenly stumbling towards the other Lunging dubiously while trying to utter How do I get you out of those pants? Not a chance Oh won’t you give me an old-fashioned romance I can hear the rumble Of those who are tired of Endless pointless nights Trying to pick up Some say good things take time I want to share more of mine So let us brew in the slow cooker I’ll be your Ghirardelli sugar I’m not trying to cast away forever But leave me out of another Forgettable regrettable casual encounter Oh won’t you give me an old-fashioned romance
Open the gate and through the entry way Up the stairway drop your stuff off And say ‘hello home’ Hear it’s reply in the same old tone Come to my apartment Let me cook you up something delicious And we can have a dance party Or do arts and crafts until 3:30 in the morning Wrap yourself in my cocoon By the way the that is code for the bed in my room And we can chat until dawn While alarm clocks chirp and old men mow their lawns While the world starts its bustling We’ll be in dreamless sleep nustling And that is all I want more or less Good food and things to do and people at their best


released August 7, 2016


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VanPan San Francisco, California

VanPan from San Fran sounds like Rilo Kiley and Feist's crazy love child that decided to be a globe trotter.

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