by VanPan

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released August 7, 2016


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VanPan San Francisco, California

VanPan from San Fran sounds like Rilo Kiley and Feist's crazy love child that decided to be a globe trotter.

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Track Name: The Way You Drive
[Bap bap ba de boop boopda]

I like the way you drive
to life,
your like a knife that cuts through the bullsh*t

[Oh woah ahhh]

I like the way you drive
yourself into me with our slow pulsing bodies I'm at sea

[Oh woah ahhh]

Ahhhh ahhh ahhh ahhh ahhh oohhh

I like the way you drive
the conversation to places where people don't go
I never know
with you
what you'll do
keep me on my toes

[Oh woah ahhh]
Track Name: La Di Da
She walks into the room, what happens to you, who cut out the sound your mind is not around…
Anymore, all is left is your heart beat beat, jaw dropped drooling on your…
Feet, you start walking step step to her, mouth saying things like, ‘how are ya’
Wake up in a flash what just happened stepped back oh wait a minute
Is she smiling back

You’re alive with love and that’s all you’re thinking of
You’re blinded from the sun from up above
In love with love and that’s all you’re thinking of
You’re in love with love with love with love
La di di da la di di da di da la la la di da

You wake up in your room, what happened to you, oh what’s that sound, your mind is buzzing round
To the ground, those aren’t my shoes you look around you, oh hush hush now she’s sleeping next to you
Oh how could this happen to me? Aren’t those funny noises that she makes when sleeping, yet…
Somehow you find it so endearing and aren’t you
Just lucky

Your friends they don’t understand they think that you’re delusional
But if they could open up your chest they’d see your hearts fractal
Is it really so complex, or is it all just simple
Your mind is a haze but it’s a haze you crave and that is all
So you know that she’s the one (for now)
Track Name: Good Man
Oh he’s a good one, he cares for me
Don’t always feel it, but I know that he wants the best for me

Perfect? We’re not perfect
Don’t try to be
Love, I don’t love every aspect of your personality

Yet I’m glad to be your honeybee,
Glad to be you honeybee

I’ll always love him
Even if we….
Together, not together
I want him to be as happy as he can be

He’s a good man, always will be
He’s so good so good I’m lucky
Track Name: Mud
Drilling down self discipline
Don’t play to play, I play to win
Catalyst, spark my sin
Oh how my head starts to spin

But when you touch my body
All I know is in the win
When you touch my body
All I know is that I can’t win

Mud, Mud

Woke up in the morning
Oh what have I done?

How I long to belong to you and want you to want it too
Track Name: Closer
I’m getting closer to music and it makes me feel closer to you
The memories turn to harmonies and they torture me just like you used to do

I can still remember
Cruel things we did to each other
But somehow it doesn’t matter
I’m still stuck on you

We’d walk through parks together our feet were made of feathers
You’d fill me up with laughter then cut me down the day after
Yet still we stayed together we were drunk on our sick pleasure
You made me feel alive
Track Name: Lovers
Two girls are lost looking for lovers
No skin to bleed their hearts uncovered
Looking to please and be discovered
Their selfish deeds are being lovers

The lovers sit and watch the day
As it fades and falls away
They can’t begin to understand
They only know the ways of men

Looking to please on bended knees
We’ll be discovered
Stripping our lovers
Track Name: Bluebird's Nest
I place all the boys in my fantasy
The ones I loved and hated, the ones I said hi to occasionally
I put them all inside of me
Letting their lips cover every nook of my body

Oh you were the victor of my little noxious test
Because you loved me better than all the rest
I laced my fingers through the nape of you neck
You were asleep as you hand laid softly upon my breast

Oh oh how I longed to let you in
You’re body so pale and freckled new, white and fresh
I compared your to my cocoa skin
The contrast between our cleaving flesh
As our limbs intertwined and meshed
The way our colors weaved like a bluebirds nest
The way our colors weaved like a bluebirds nest
A bluebirds nest, bluebird’s nest
Track Name: In the Fire
Throw me in the fire
Watch the flames burn higher
With your terrors removed
With your terrors removed
Track Name: Bonne Amie (Good Friend)
Il y a une fille
There is a girl
avec deux grands yeux
With two ample eyes
Un sourire qui brille
A smile that shines
Même si elle est ailleurs
However she is elsewhere
Mais je l'adore pour son espirit
But I adore her for her mind
J'aime quand on parle et quand on rit
I love it when we talk and when we laugh

Ma bonne amie, Ma bonne amie
My good friend, My good friend
Parler avec toi, ce n'est pas un souci
Talking with you is not a worry
Ma bonne amie, tu donnes ton avis
My good friend, You give me your opinion
à propos de toutes les choses de la vie
on everything in life

Elle incarne la joie de vivre
She embodies the joy of life
Ses belles paroles m'enivrent
Her beautiful words intoxicate me
Te-souviens tu de la chanson du paresseux?
Do you remember the song about the sloth?
On faisait n'importe quoi et on a écrite toute les deux
We did whatever and wrote it together

Ma bonne amie, Ma bonne amie
My good friend, My good friend
Quand j'suis avec toi j'ai pas de souci
When I'm with you I have no worries
Ma bonne amie, Ma bonne amie
My good friend, my good friend
Je te garderai pour toute la vie
I'll keep you for life

Quand on était ensemble la vie rimait avec vacance
When we are together life resembles vacation
Tes gestes et mouvements se font avec élégance
Your gestures and movements are done with elegance
Tu es aux États Unis, je suis en France
You are in the United States, I'm in France
Tu viendra peut-être me voir avec un peu de
You'll come visit me perhaps with a bit of chance
Track Name: Sit Next to You
You feel it creeping in
Coming to suck your breadth
Falling off the earth

In your head, (you're/where)
in your head

Until you know what to do
I can sit here next to you
I can't say I know what you're going through
But I'll be here sitting next to you

But I feel so helpless
Love escapes your eyes
Where does your mind lie?
Track Name: Eyes Open
Give me a lonesome night
I want to feel sorrow

There’s a gentle consciousness
When the body’s calm

My eyes are open

My head is clear and I find peace
When I look out the window
Track Name: Ok
In general I’m happier in nature
Though my skin is full of bug bites and splinters
I’m itchy and uncomfortable
but somehow there’s a peace in my soul Ok

And I’m learning as I go
Many things I don’t have control of
And all the possibilities I could take Ok

I’m cynical when I think about you
But I still write about how it used to
Be and your stupid affect on me
More rhymes and time and I guess we’ll see Ok
Track Name: Kitchen Counter
Sitting on my kitchen counter
Up high on the 15th story
I can see the Eiffel Tour
As it sparkle here before me

And I wonder how many stories
Of love lay buried in its memory
As I gaze upon the city
I think of you I think of you I think of you and me

We were playing Texas Hold’em
Anti up and deal me in
But should I raise or should I fold them
Oh the risks when gamblin

And I wonder how can I win
My thoughts are cards in a deck that’s shuffling
Should I raise or fold, will we grow old
Will we stay together or part forever

Je me demande
combien de temps nous
avons, avant nous de partir pour de bon
je me je me demande

Sitting on my kitchen counter
I can’t help but wander
Oh will we stay together or will we part forever?
Track Name: Yue Zou Yue Shen (越走越深)
You're on your way
I see your silhouette
I won't make you stay
My love

Walking on the field with no direction
zai hei an li yue zou yue shen
(Within the darkness, walking further and deeper)

yue zou yue shen
(Walking further and deeper)

bu zai huan xiang
(No longer in the illusion)
ba hei an
(Taking the darkness)
zhuang jīn xing nang
(Packing it in my napsack)
you dang liu lang
(Wandering, roaming)
Track Name: Choose your Words
Your insecurities become a self fulfilled prophecy
As you rip apart pieces of my psychology
Using your words as weapons just to hurt me
But the impact is hard to foresee
I say

Choose your words very carefully
Choose your words very carefully
Before there are too many casualties

I need my choice I need my freedom
So let me love you to my rhythm
I made my choice I need my freedom
So let me love you to my rhythm

Can you take me as I am
Oh can you take me as I am
Oh come on take me as I am
Oh no won’t you choose to understand?
Oh understand

And then maybe things can go back to
How they used to be
Track Name: Old-Fashioned Romance
Oh won’t you give me a chance
At an old-fashioned romance
Eloquently move me with a good story
So I can lean in closely and kiss your cheek
See roses rush to your face
As I place my hand into yours

But doesn’t that take swag?
Perhaps the people back in those days had
it more than I’ll ever have
Beats drunkenly stumbling towards the other
Lunging dubiously while trying to utter
How do I get you out of those pants?
Not a chance
Oh won’t you give me an old-fashioned romance

I can hear the rumble
Of those who are tired of
Endless pointless nights
Trying to pick up

Some say good things take time
I want to share more of mine
So let us brew in the slow cooker
I’ll be your Ghirardelli sugar
I’m not trying to cast away forever
But leave me out of another
Forgettable regrettable casual encounter

Oh won’t you give me an old-fashioned romance
Track Name: The Apartment
Open the gate and through the entry way
Up the stairway drop your stuff off
And say ‘hello home’
Hear it’s reply in the same old tone

Come to my apartment
Let me cook you up something delicious
And we can have a dance party
Or do arts and crafts until 3:30 in the morning

Wrap yourself in my cocoon
By the way the that is code for the bed in my room
And we can chat until dawn
While alarm clocks chirp and old men mow their lawns
While the world starts its bustling
We’ll be in dreamless sleep nustling

And that is all I want more or less
Good food and things to do and people at their best

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